I am sorry that rocket is sick . You arnt a bad owner. TRUST me alot of ppl acuse me of being a bad owner and I am not. Dont blame your self, it isnt your fault that he is sick, he could have a genetic disorter that was passed on to him by his parents, luckily for me I have a exotics vet 10 min away by car drive, thats where I took Pippin, I am sending thoughts your way, get well soon rocket .