Bless you all to pieces. You are all amazingly wonderful. This was my first morning with Graham since the accident. I am finding that it is harder then I thought it would be. He is witholding his pee and poop because it's too hard to balance. I am supposed to take him out for very brief pee/poop breaks, walking him as little as possible. He is really showing a stubborn side that I have never seen before, he's not going to the bathroom. He tried to pee this morning and he chose a spot that was on a slight hill and he lost his balance and fell. I then walked him back and forth for probablly too long to try and get him to go again and he refused and I had to go to work so he went back inside and he'll have to hold it until I am off work. He used to LOVE to go outside, even if it was just to get the mail, now he has no interest. In fact, he hates walking in general. He no longer followes me around the house. He's so unhappy. I cried this morning when he fell trying to pee. I am using all of my self control to not baby him at all. I am making him do things he does not want to do, and trying my very hardest to not change the tone in my voice or change the words I use. And I am not helping him along when he stops and looks at me asking for pity. I let him trip over the fallen branches because he has to learn how to walk around or over them, and how to have better ballance. I may sound and appear cold to my neighbors if they see me but he has to get used to this thing, he's going to have it for a very long time. It's killing me. I don't know if I can do this. It's so hard to see him and to not treat him like he's handicapped. I am hoping strentgh will come to me, and acceptance will come to him soon. This is truly going to be a challange because he is my most beloved baby and I love him with all of my heart and soul