I am sorry that you are having such a bad experience in highschool. That makes me sad, because those are supposed to be the best memories. For the most part, my highschool was ok; but my husband was miserable like you are.

One encouraging thing that I can say: I've been out since 1996. I cannot believe how so many people that I looked up to are losers now. How many pretty snobs are on welfare with 5 kids. How the jerk jock that picked on me is now a druggie. How half the druggies are dead or in prison, etc... It's hard to imagine right now, but in a few years, you'll look behind you and laugh. Image won't matter as much. Friends will be friends because they have common interests, not because they are cool or in the same social status. All this crap will be irrelevant and half the people that bother you will be miserable. Your life is in your hands. You have to just focus on taking care of yourself and making yourself happy. Think of this as a stepping stone for the future. Before you know it, it'll all be over with. Good luck.