Thanks for your replies.

I do feel like a burden....He abandoned me. He kept changing his phone number, and so I would never have it. I called him last. He never called me back.

I'm afraid to ask him if he'll help pay for Leather's medication...I know he doesn't care about her. She misses him so much, every time she sees me she cries and cries because she loves me so much. I can imagine her pee after she sees him. She hasn't seen him for almost seven months. If he doesnt want to see me, I atleast wish he would go see Leather puppy. The only thing I'm afraid of is that if he does, he might take her away.