Welcome to Pet Talk. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know exactly how you're feeling right now because I lost my Pepper almost 4 months ago. I had two other cats at the time and they really helped me get through my grieving process. The people here at Pet Talk also helped me with their emotional support. I adopted another cat about a month later and he's really helped me move on with my grieving process.

At least Jose is now pain free and playing happily at Rainbow Bridge. It will take time to get over the pain that you're feeling but in time you'll be able to remember the good times that you had with him. You may want to adopt another cat in the future. I know that another cat will never replace Jose but it will help ease your pain. Please take care.