Sigh..

I wish I had some real news, but I don't Bassett's blood work up came back normal. The vet sent off the fluid again, but it hasn't come back from the lab. My vet called the radiologist and she said "well the picture and diagnosis I did thie first time should be enough. I don't see any point in doing it again." I know my vet well enough to know that she does NOT agree with that. I really think that she will want Bassett to have a catscan, and possibly another ultrasound. She also said that she will be calling the surgeon in Victoria today to ask him what he thinks is the best route to take. I'm just so numb from all this. I can't have Bassett tapped every three days. It isn't good for her, and it's not safe, and it's totally unfair. None of this is fair. I know I shouldn't but I can't help but wonder what I did to deserve this. I and REALLY wonder why Bassett deserves this. I just wanna SCREAM "make ME sick.. I'll suffer through it because at least I can say what's wrong" Bassett has no voice in all this and it's killing me. She looks at me with these trusting eyes like "why, mom? why?" and what can I say to her? Nothing! because I don't even know myself!! This is tearing me apart and the only reason I'm keeping it together at all is because I know Bassett needs me and I know that no matter what happens with Bassett, Tilly and Nutmeg need me. I just don't know how much hurt my heart can hold before it explodes inside me.

Thank you all for your support. It means SO much and you are all wonderful and I love you all. I really don't think I COULD do it without knowing that I can come here and let my fingers throwup all over the keyboard and someone is there for me to rely on. Thank you all.

I'll keep you posted. As soon as I know something, you all will know too. Please keep praying.