Some not so good news....

[Nomilynn]

Still no real news. I have to wait until tomorrow, when the results from the blood test and fluid tests are back. The vet is also rechecking the chyle (apparently she got ANOTHER 120cc today ), to make sure that is still clear.

It's strange. I was sitting waiting for the vet to call me, and for a few seconds it was like I would forget Bassett was sick. I could go upstairs, find her sleeping on her bed in the sun, and she was fine. Then, the reality of it all would come rushing back like a huge tidal wave of dread and greif and fear and frustration. I just feel so helpless in this whole situation. I had a long talk today with the two techs at the office when I picked Bassett up, and they said to me that I've been better than most people in taking Bassett to the specialists and spending money when I didn't necessarily have it; Sue actually said that I was the best owner .. even though I don't think of myself as "owning" anything. I am blessed with these companions that live not only in my home but also in my heart. I can't imagine NOT doing everything possible for Bassett - or any of them should the need arise. I just pray that the decisions I have to make are made clear to me; I know they will be difficult and I know it will be financially trying, but I just pray to God that He will help me with this process.

So, I don't know what the outcome will be. I just hope that whatever it is, a real solution can be drawn from it. Right now, I'm going to go cuddle with my girl