Sorry to hear about you are not getting wery well.
I don't understand what *sd* and MIA means but I certandly do understand that you are not feeling well and have some issues that is hard to deal with.
Hopfully you have an understanding husband.
Oh, is difficult for me to express my simpathy for you in english. Sorry
I have deal in the past on similar situations I understand you ! To the point to go to live abroad, I don't have kids, with no friend & no money. I haven't regretted one single time !.
We are here if you need to vent.
Take care and be brave
((( HUGS )))