What's weird is I was feeling really weird at work all day, sort of sick to my stomach, having a headache and just feeling faint. I wonder if I knew somehow that he was sick?



I'm so mad because in just ONE week he could have had his new cast off and been able to do normal birdy things again. *sigh*


Yesterday was just a horrible day. I went to work and Dan went to his grandmothers while I was working. He gave me her number but it was off by one digit, as in he didn't remember it correctly. So come 12 oclock I tried calling him to pick me up and no answer. I called forever til around 1 when everyone in the clinic wanted to leave soon. The doctors stay a little longer but I didn't really want to make myself a burden. I tried calling his moms to get his grandmothers number to make sure it was correct but they weren't home. So I had no way to call Dan and without a car no way to get home. Of course this was the day I had to forget my keys.


Well I got a ride home from Kyndall and just waited outside for a bit untl my neighbor got home. HIs gm's number wasn't in the phonebook so I called 411 on Julies phone to get the number. He was waiting for me to call. You think he would have called work or just came down if I was an hour late. No course not. So then I had to wait another 30 minutes for him to get home.


Then I get home and Alex is on the floor of his cage obviously looking close to the end. I tried to call the vets but couldn't get a hold of anyone. Terri Sue finally called me back, we spoke and as soon as I hung up the phone he did that seizure like thing they do, and he was gone. He died in my arms. I am SO glad I was there for him when he went. I think he was waiting for me. I am also starting to think that all that other stuff happened because it was his time to go, that's why I was late etc.


Dylan said goodbye to him and it was Dylans first death. He knew what was going on and I explained to him that the birdy had gone to heaven and that he was happy now. We just held him for a few minutes and said our goodbyes. You could see Dylan was so sad mommy was crying so I had to stop as I didn't want to worry him so much.


I am going to take him to work on Tuesday to have him cremated...Alex not Dylan lol. I am thinking of cremating him and then putting his ashes in a planted baby tree. So his memory can be in the tree forever, and I can take him with me wherever I go. I just really miss that guy. My house seems so quiet without him here.