Kim, please rethink this through before making any drastic decisions. I agree with Rosethecopycat in that working with a rescue organization could take the pressure off. We know you do good work and those of us who can't do your good work look forward to your messages and pictures. Please don't blame yourself.

As Donna says "I'm here for you, as is everyone here on PetTalk."
We are here for you and encouraging you every step of the way.