I've been up all night, and I'm just feeling very tired, overwhelmed and down. I plan to call another woman who does rescue, who had already offered to take any kittens if need be. I think I will ask her to take all six kittens, hopefully BEFORE they take sick!!!! I love them too much to expose them any furthur!!!

Thank you for your kind words and encouragment .... self-blame is my "middle name" .... a side effect of having a major depressive illness.