Kelly,

You are doing the right thing. There are many feral cats out there who live happy lives in the colonies after being spayed/neutered. I truly believe in the TNR program. There are WAY too many feral cats that can never be placed because they just don't trust humans and never will. It's a fact of life. And the alternative (euthanization) to me, is not an option.

I maintained a feral colony along with other volunteers, going around everyday to make sure they had food, water and shelter. I also worked with 3 feral kittens I trapped in CT. Two of them I found homes for, once I had them fixed. The third one, Grumpy Dave (named after my father) never came around. I was very discouraged because I wanted so badly to find him a good, loving, indoor only home. But it was not meant to be. He is now living a grand life on a farm in upstate Connecticut with other feral cats. I did what was best for him, as I am sure you will do what is best for the grey and white cat. She just may be too feral to socialize. It happens. Please don't let it get you down. Just keep in mind that if you DO bring her to the humane society, they WILL euthanize her because she is not placeable. At least if you release her (I'd wait at least 48 hours after surgery) she will be able to live.

Hang in there, girl! I applaud your efforts 100%.

Soledad,

Feral cats are regarded as pests since they kill off the native bird and plant life, so they are trapped, killed or poisoned.
The only people that regard feral cats as pests are STUPID ones!! Cats don't ask to be feral. They are tossed out like trash by people (I won't say humans as anyone who abandons a cat or kitten in that way aren't human) and expected to fend for themselves.