Staci, like others I really feel this is fate for you to have that pup, BUT only you will know. And of course we will all stand behind whatever decision you make. It is normal to have doubts. When my 14 year old lab died, I didn't feel like I should ever get another dog again. Dessi let me know though that it was time to move on and she would watch over me. Even though I have 2 dogs now, I also keep Dessi in my heart and mind, and after a year and a half, I haven't forgetten her in the least. You won't forget about Shai, and you won't be betraying Shai. She will let you know. And we will be here for you