Dear Aly, I know how you love each and every animal in your care, but if there were ever a person who does her best, it is you. Please don't evaluate yourself based on this sad event. Deep down inside you must know that you are the kind of person who is the most caring. Now if you had a twin, wouldn't she be the first one you would consider to care for your animals? Of course. Beating yourself up just saps your strength which you know you need to go on to do the good that you do. So there!