Tanya, you came to the right place. I am so sorry for your loss. Every single person here will be thinking about you I'm sure. Rachel is right, let yourself cry but don't let it consume you. My lab died 13 months ago and that was such a hard time because she was the dog I grew up with. I understand what you are going through. I recently had to give up one of my dogs and I almost fell completely apart. What did help me is that I knew I had to be strong for my other dog and cat. Also coming here and reading the well wishes from everyone can help so much. Be strong for your other dog and he/she will feel better and help you feel better. I know how empty you can feel but remember the good times and know that your dog will be waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge.