It is a sad thing to abort the kittens...BUT...the Humane Society here will not adopt a pet out until it has been spayed/neutered. There are SO many irresponsible pet owners out there, they have no way of knowing how responsible YOU are as one. I would rather have it this way, than someone adopt and not spay and then there's all the more cats/kittens without homes and reproducing. It's too bad this had to happen to you though.