I think I do it to prepare myself for anything that may ever happen, truly I don't really know. It's not a high for me, more like it makes me sad and depressed but it is still interesting at the same time, but discusting and sick too. If I ever see anyone hurt I want to make sure I can stand looking at them so that I will be able to help them, instead of being a baby and not helping because I would have to see blood or guts or what not.