You have not depressed any one, we all have someone that we lost. It was years before I came to grips with my mom's death and it will be equally as long for my friend who died in Nov. Some days are harder than others. period. that is how it is and how it will be. But feel free to let us know how you feel. How can we be there for each other if we do not know what you are feeling. I bet just typing it was somewhat of a relief. Take care, OK?