Angel, I couldn't read your whole post. I only read a few sentences because I am way too emotional to read things that might have a sad ending. BUT DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF! Everyone here knows what a sweet dog loving peson you are. And we all know how awful you must feel but try to remember that it was just a wrong place at the wrong time kind of thing. Stuff like that happens and no one can help it. Please don't feel so bad. I know I'd feel the exact same way as you but just try to feel better if you can. Everyone here supports you.