I hadn't seen this thread before and just read it all right now. Ash, I know you have thought long and hard about this and I don't think any of us can judge you until we have walked a mile in your shoes. I know you are experiencing a roller coaster of emotions. This is an extremely gut wrenching decision!! I can hear it in your posts. Whatever you decide to do, I will support you. {{{hugs to you and Chewy}}}