I am so sad for both you and Ricky. What a heartbreaking thing to happen. I know the decision was a difficult one, but from what you have said, I think I would have made the same one. You made this decision out of love and caring for Ricky's Lucy. I guess it is normal to doubt our choices in times like these, I think it is part of the grieving process. Please take care of yourselves. We are here for you if you need us.