Tracey , this is a very special tribute to your beloved Pepper !! Everyone can feel here how much you loved this lovely guy
I must agree with the others here : as time goes by , the pain will ease . I had the same experience with my Sydney last year . At first , i thought I would never be able to stop crying . It still hurts a lot now , but I try to cherish the fine moments I had with Sydney , and of course I have my two new cats now . Inka & Maya were sent by Sydney , I AM SURE OF THAT !!!

Take care , dear Tracey !!