Random thoughts

[mon]

P.s. I know this sounds ridiculous but I am open to any suggestions. Monster in law drinks like a fish too. I hope she doesn't imbibe in tha a.m. I know she drinks plenty of wine after 3 p.m. and has a few screwdrivers before bedtime. We only keep beer in the house, Shawn has had 3 drinks in the 30 years I've known him, I like beer but he simply doesn't drink, ergo, no liquor cabinate for her to partake. Mum brings her own booze and squirrels it away in her room, except for the litres of red wine she bring upstairs and spills all over the granite counters. She doesn't drink beer. Anyway, if she goes to sleep drunk, gets up early and drives...she's probably still impaired right? I don't know, I don't possess a breathalyzer and even if I did I'm pretty sure the old chick wouldn't blow. I sure as hell am not getting up as early as she does to keep an eye on her silly ass anyways. This broad clearly drives me berserk. Oh my goodness. I hate coping with this crap. Thanks for listening. It is a clusterf*ck. There is clearly no solution that I can see.

[phesina]

Good grief, what a nightmare!

[mon]

Thanks, I know. I don't think there's much to do or say. I'm pretty sure it is just something to endure. I will continue to try and look at it from a positive angle. I have no idea what that angle might be however, but there has to be one....right? Okay, maybe not. It's a nightmare for sure. Maybe I could go stay in a monestary, say I have become a tad unhinged and need to reflect on my spiritual well being......oh never mind. Shawns not gonna buy that. It's gonna be hell for sure. I remember about 18 yrs. ago when she came out, I got so stressed out I had to go to emergency. At the time, I thought I was having a heart attack. They kept me there for 4 days, I was on intravenous dilaudid and did a lot of tests. That was the best break EVER!They never really figured out what was wrong with me. As I look back, I think it was stress. The break from her worked miracles for sure. That will never happen again, I can manage stress now. I have my big girl panties now and far more knowledge,experience and maturity. I'll just smile a lot, agree a lot and pretend my hearing is shot. I can simply ask her to vaccume or dust and she'll bolt like her hairs on fire. I also know that she hates it when I sing, if she gets too weird I'll just burst into song. There's a couple options, feeling better already.

[mon]

Just one more thing if you can bear with me. When I say she bolts, I don't mean she physically leaves, she goes to her bedroom, in our home. She proceeds to watch television, talk to her imaginary freinds on the computer,who no longer allow her to visit as she has overstayed her welcome everywhere and burned all her bridges, every single one. She'll then play games on her I pad and drink as much as she can tolerate intlil she gets hungry. Then she'll come back upstairs, sit in my chair and ask what's for dinner. This just might be her last visit if she doesn't behave. Too outrageous for me anymore. I'll just have to tell her she is not welcome anymore and why. I'll do that if I have too, no one needs that crap. Sorry, freaking out, thanks again for listening.

[Karen]

You will be in our prayers, for patience, forbearance, and all of it!

[mon]

Thank you so much Karen!! I'll take it. I need all the help I can get.

[Karen]

Some lessons stay with us for a lifetime, even if we resented learning them in the first place.