Guilt is a terrible burden, do not let it weigh on your heart, it will make you sick. Karen is right, lessons are learned and sometimes not so easily. I remember like it was yesterday, the vet said that Shadowmans heart was so diseased, on a scale of one to ten she said it was a 10. She said it was not fair to Shadowman to let him go on any longer because he was suffering. In my infinite wisdom and denial, I took him home. Of course the vet went on holidays the next day and I actually phoned her ( wherever she was) Are you absolutely sure, must I ??? She was an angel and listened to me sob and cry. Of course I did the right
thing the next day. The point is that we do our very best and these decisions are crucial, we do not make them lightly and given all of the love involved, sometimes almost impossible IMHO. I have remembered all the wonderful times and had many, many more cats to spoil obscenely since then. I shall carry on in that spirit for as long as I am able, no time for regrets.....to busy buying cat food, cleaning up barf and vacuuming. You did your very best, no doubt about it! 🤜🏻🤛💕❤️🌹