I am very, sincerely sorry for the loss of your beloved Willy McGillicuddy. I wanted to also say that I know exactly what you mean about how painful it can be, the last time we were at the vet for something minor for our cat, there was a woman in her car, right beside us when we left. She was just sobbing, it was right in front of the vets office and ..... I just knew what had happened. It did not seem appropriate to disturb her or try to comfort her at all but my heart just broke for her. I wanted to hug her SO bad! We are entrusted to care for our pets and we do our best. I have been there so many times, I think sometimes a good cry is just healthy and the beginning of dealing with grief.