What an absolutely beautiful, breathtaking story of your two girls. You had them both for almost 20 years. That is wonderful! They are up in kitty Heaven now, watching over you. I do hope you get another pair of kittens/cats. They won't replace Miriam and Sarah, but they will keep you occupied and help your heart to heal. Please go to a shelter and adopt a couple (or even 3) that desperately need a home. There are millions of cats sitting in cages in shelters, just waiting for someone like you to walk thru the door. Thank you for sharing your story. Best of luck to you and whatever new kitties you adopt. God Bless