Hi, I am brand new here but read your post and wanted to comment. I am so sorry for your loss. I've had to give up 9 dogs over the past 32 years and it never gets any easier. I loved each one so much and felt like my heart had been pulled out at each loss...........I found out tho that only a piece of it at a time was taken and when the next baby appeared it moved right in and homesteaded its own piece of my heart. You never get over it but it does get a little easier with time.