Dear Pat,

Try not to worry so much. Instead of focussing on what might go wrong, try to visualize how better you will be afterwards; You will be in safe hands, the docs know what they're doing, so try not to think negative
In 2003 I had a really major back surgery, and i had no choice to get it or not; I simply had to!
Together with lots of support from friends and family, I managed to stay reasonably calm;
Now I am soooooooo glad I had that operation! I know, I still have lots of backproblems, but at least I got rid of a very big problem; If I hadn't agreed to be helped, I would now be in a wheelchair, suffering immense pain! I am so happy I had so much trust in my surgeons!
I am most willig to send you as much positive vibes as I can sweetheart

Take care!!