I am so sorry that you lost such an important member of your family and assure you that all of us feel your sadness as we have loved and lost as well. I hope you have opened your heart and your home to another cat - especially after noticing that you live in Montreal, where I am. We have sooo many homeless cats, as you probably know. Another thing to keep in mind is that many cats have been poisoned by neighbors (or victims of other types of abuse) in Montreal so maybe you could consider keeping your cats indoors like I do. I can promise you that my cats are very happy and don't even try to go outside (unless I take them on a leash). I wish you peace and hope you will pay tribute to your Douchka by saving one of her brothers or sisters.