It makes me cry to feed kitties with one less less bowl bowl on the counter & it's hard to stop myself from going to the kitty medicine cupboard after 6 years of routine three times a day.

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. While your words made me start crying again, it felt good to know you all understand what I'm going through and that helps. Thank you for all your kind words of empathy and compassion, much appreciated.