First, I'm very sorry for your loss. Second, you have absolutely nothing to feel guilty about. You were doing what you thought (and what I think any rational person would have thought) was in your cat's best interest. You were trying to help her. She knew that you loved her and I'm sure she loved you right back. It's wonderful that you had each other for so long, though of course I know how much it hurts now. Please know that our thoughts are with you!!!!
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