I know how you feel as Joseph , Princess, Bo Bo , Moose and Orangie all dies at home and only after I left being by their side to feed the other Ctas or myself. Our Cats do not want us to see them pass on it is not an easy sight to see.
Salem knows how much you loved her and is sad that you are unhappy and wants you to know that she is in a good place where there are Animal Angels all around her and she is wearing her Wings of Silver and Gold now.
Salem is starting her search now for that place in Paradise where you can all be together in love furrever.
One Fine Day