Randi, I think having Fister's ashes will be comforting for you. Even if you don't know exactly what you'll do with the ashes, just having them will give you a chance to find the best idea later on. It's so hard to make clear choices when you're so sad. I have the ashes of all of my previous pets and the plan has always been to sprinkle them around a tree 'when' we find our forever home. But we keep moving so that hasn't happened. So I've been thinking about buying a potted plant or two that could be placed in a garden one day and will sprinke the ashes in there. Maybe you could find a beautiful plant and it could be indoors permanantly and have Fister's ashes be part of it and you can nurture it and watch it grow. And if you ever changed your residence and had a garden at some point, you could have the option of planting it outdoors or just continue on with it being an indoor plant.

Whatever you decide, I hope that it will help make him feel close so that you can heal.