This is exactly how I felt when I lost Nakita. When I adopted Steve and Gigi I was so mad at myself. They were so independant and played with each other - but I wanted a cat that wanted me. I soon found that's exactly what happened but it's so so hard to realize you have brought other cats in the house that don't resemble the last. You try not to compare but you want that familiar soul to reappear - even just a little.
Go easy on yourself, enjoy the new fur and their different personalities. Keep K'Cee close - but make sure to make a little room to allow these ones to wiggle their way into your heart in their own special way.
So sorry to hear of your loss.I'm never on here anymore but always try to drop by during the Christmas season.
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