Reintroduction after a long "hiatus"

[Flatcoatluver]

It's amazing how your life can appear to be in shambles, but when you look back on it, it was just all a part of the remodeling process for a better life. And as much heartache I went through the past few years, every ounce of it was worth it for where I am today.

I love this, I'm going through a lot of heartache and your post just brightend my day! I never knew everything you went through, and I been friends with you on fb since we both "left" Glad to see your back as well!

[Jessika]

I love this, I'm going through a lot of heartache and your post just brightend my day! I never knew everything you went through, and I been friends with you on fb since we both "left" Glad to see your back as well!

I was pretty private about the whole thing. Friends and family who were close to me knew, but I didn't really feel the need to make it extremely public, I didn't really want the attention. I started a new job 2 weeks before my ex asked me to leave, and nobody at work knew anything was going on until months later when I just broke down at work and had to miss a day. Of course, when I started dating my boyfriend now, people suddenly came out of the woodwork "What happened with you and HJ??", and I never replied to them... those were the people just being nosy and wanted to gossip.

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through a rough time too, but TRUST ME when I say... everything happens for a reason, and you WILL be better off for it in the end!!

[Alysser]

Welcome back, Jessika!! We're really glad to have you back, and I have to say your post really made my day to. I am so glad you're so much happier. So sorry to hear that Charlie got hurt, that looks really painful. I am also glad to see Jaime back. You're a strong person for going through all that really. Welcome back!

[Roxyluvsme13]

Good to see you back! I was wondering where you'd went off to.

I'm sorry you've been through so much in your life in the past few years and that you don't have a lot of your animals with you, but at least you have Jamie and your two beautiful kitties!

[Jessika]

Thank you both!

It is really hard, there are nights that I'll have bad dreams about Charlie (hes an atopic dog and I had to give him Benadryl three times a day to try to prevent his allergies from popping up, but when he started scratching he'd scratch himself bald/bleeding and get hot spots and then he'd have to be on oral antibiotics and need a steroid injection just to make him comfortable) where he lost all his fur from scratching/etc... I KNOW my ex is not keeping up with the benadryl, he's only doing it once a day according to him (and I'm sure that's only when he remembers...). and I'll look at pics and just miss his goofy personality SO much... but I have to let it go. He isn't being neglected persay, he just isn't withholding the level of care I would have him at if I had him. He does keep his vaccines up to date and seek medical attention when he needs it. It's just hard, considering my ex has a baby now with the "lady" he left me for and I know the kid always comes first, so I do worry about Charlie...

[Alysser]

I think that's normal for you to worry. Are you ever allowed to see him? And I am sure if he'd ever have to rehome Charlie for any reason, I am sure you're the first person he'd call.

[Jessika]

I think that's normal for you to worry. Are you ever allowed to see him? And I am sure if he'd ever have to rehome Charlie for any reason, I am sure you're the first person he'd call.

I guess if I wanted to see him he would, but he'd give me trouble. Everything always happens on my ex's watch, not anyone else's. And personally I don't ever want to see my ex again or make him think I still have ties to him.

Granted, my sister will still go and visit my ex's parents at their shop, and Charlie is -always- there, so she gives me updates. Last she visited though was before Christmas