I was talking to my other sister in law the other night. We were asking each other if we've heard from Cindy. Cindy cut herself off from everyone about a month ago. My other siter in law was upset that we had gotten Cindy into an in-patient treatment center last year and Cindy screamed and threatened to sue if they didn't release her.... so they did. Cindy needed to be institutionalized. She was never happy. She had more problems than anyone would ever guess. She was frustrating to say the least, but she was kind and tried to do the best shecould. Her intentions were always good. She just wanted to love and be loved - to feel wanted.

We always knew Cindy was going to commit suicide. It was a matter of when insted of if. We lost count as to how many attempts she's made.

I feel awful that she did this. Whether by design to end it, or for attention.... we kept calling her and checking up on her. She refused to talk to us. She HAD our attention. We were worried about her.