Kirsten, this post made me a little sad. Of course you deserve it! Not only do you have a wonderful gift and brilliant eye, you are such a sweet kind person. You've been through A LOT recently and I believe you deserve it, as does your friend. If she's offering this to you, she is obviously a true friend and really believes in you and your passion. I think you should accept the gift as well.

Please don't feel like you are a useless individual, because that isn't true in the slightest.