My beloved, beautiful Tommy

[SadButGrateful]

Please don't beat yourself up with all the "what ifs" Tommy didn't revive from the surgery because he was very sick. It would only have been a matter of time. You would have had to make the decision to let him go...at least that decision was made for you. The vets know what they are doing. I'm sure they did all they could. It was just his time...
As far as the memories...I went through that about Rusty. Oh it hurt! I didn't know I could cry so hard. Then I woke up one morning, about a week after he passed, feeling terribly guilty about feeling so sad! It hit me that he never did anything to make me sad! He only gave me wonderful and joy-filled memories. I want to keep those memories in my heart and smile. I want to cherish them! Sure it hurts, but I won't let those memories go no matter how much it hurts sometimes.
I guess it's personal. Nobody can tell you how to feel. I'll end with a quote from Carolyn Scott about her dog, Rookie....
(they were the most famous canine freestyle team in the world)

"The only pain or sadness you ever brought me…..was the day you left me."

[K9soul]

Thank you for your comforting words, Val and SBG. I feel like I've begun accepting it more again. Not less sad, not missing him any less, but at least coming to terms more that it has happened. I thought I had before but seemed to relapse into not accepting. It is just very difficult.

I'm familiar with Rookie and Carolyn, have enjoyed watching them in the past. Her words certainly ring true.

[Varga]

I'm so sorry for not seeing this earlier but I still wanted to extent my sympathies to you for your loss. I always loved seeing photos of your girls and handsome Tommy. I especially remember one photo of him standing in the snow with a huge tree log in his mouth. He seemed like such a gentle and loving dog.

All the best to you.

[tikeyas_mom]

Thank you for your comforting words, Val and SBG. I feel like I've begun accepting it more again. Not less sad, not missing him any less, but at least coming to terms more that it has happened. I thought I had before but seemed to relapse into not accepting. It is just very difficult.

I'm familiar with Rookie and Carolyn, have enjoyed watching them in the past. Her words certainly ring true.

Im so sad to read this! Im soooo sorry Jessica. Its like no other pain in the world when your best friend dies- your dog... i am still aching from Tikeyas death. I will keep you in my thoughts, Tommy was such a good Golden boy, and one of my favorite PT pups as well.. Your video was beautiful, i wished I had the knowledge to make something like that for Tikeya. It brought me to tears.. Again I am so sorry for your loss