In the end, I think your heart will give you the answer Sue! I for one am NOT in the least bit surprised that you and your family are falling in love with these sweet boys!! And while fostering is the most "visible" aspect of rescue, there are so many other vital links in the rescue chain, just as important, that you can participate in should you decide on adoption! I know you don't like driving, but there's adoption coordinating, phone screening, home checks, even short term fostering, for just a day or two or a weeekend! Logan did several of those, where she filled in for another foster Mom when she had to be out of town, etc. I think you're quite overwhelmed right now...SO much goings on with Gaylord, his illness, Bandit, his illness, foster Bandit, his little set back, not to mention everyone sick with the flu, Diana's scare...did I forget anything???? Try not to think on it too much for a day or two! Wait till your new baby comes home and after a few days, when everything and everyone has had a chance to recoup, have a family pow pow! You're heart will let you know! You're amazing!!!!!!!!!! {{{sigh!!}}}