Oh, how my heart aches for you, Gini. There truly are no words at this time, this we all know too well. Time is the healer, and I wish you six months to pass in a blink of the eye, so that fond memories can bring some comfort. You are held dear by so many, and we share your grief so that it may lighten a bit. Rascal was an orangie, loved by many, none so deeply as you. He knew that, I am sure. Treat yourself gently.