I can relate to what you are going through, too......hugs to you, and prayers.........it isn't something you will ever really "get over''......you will learn to accept that she is gone and to remember the good times, but you will always have a sadness, and a part of you missing.........it will help to remind yourself that she is no longer suffering. She probably wanted those four extra days with you, too, or she would have gone by herself sooner. She was probably waiting for you to be able to "let her go" and she was probably relieved when the time came.......I am sure she apprecieated your decision to give her permission to go.........She is at the Rainbow Bridge now. Maybe she is playing with my Oreo, and Sandi, and even my cat Angel..........((((HUGS))))