So sorry to hear that things are not brighter for you right now, but it is said that it is darkest before the dawn. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Gosh - your photography is so awesome, it's difficult to believe that you wouldn't be able to make money with that talent. Is there someone that would sponsor you, perhaps to publish your works? It seems like such a waste that you have such a way with the camera, but you have no way to share it with the masses. I'm certain that there is a market out there just waiting to be tapped in to. I've seen photography sell for big $$$, that can't even come close to the beautiful work that you do.

Feel better, and don't lose hope.