time is almost here... Nov 20-22nd..

and I´m scared beyond reason... I´ve been dreaming that today is the day.. each day for the last week..

I´m scared... and I´ve already been through it once.. but this time seems scarier.. also adding up the circumstances... I just don´t want to face it alone I think...(despite I´m not alone alone, but still)...

I soooo need to relax...