thanks to Pembroke_corgi... we got a lovely package with baby stuff.. will post pics once I take/upload some.. thank you so much also for the card.. ((hugs))...

Iīve been ok... having ups and downs.. especially while in the shower.. not sure why.. but Iīve managed to get by one day at a time... still have a lot on my plate to sort out.. but things are coming along... itīs really tough having to deal with this and still have to do tons of paperwork and whatnot.. what a hassle...

I did got the PT book in with the rest of my stuff.. they shipped it over.. I still have a few things to add.. sorry if itīs taking me long.. and it will take an extra 2 weeks to get to whomever goes next (still need the address of whoīs next too)..

in regards of my babyīs name.. I think Iīve settled for one name.. I even dreamed about it.. actually dreamed of hubby telling me it was ok... but not sure if it was my subconscious or what..

I wouldīve settled for Jordan Ariel.. but he didnīt liked much the Jordan part and i think it wouldnīt be fair to make my will now that heīs gone... so I was debating between Ariel Elizabeth and Ariel Reneé... and was thinking which ones of the list i made wouldīve he liked the most...then I had this dream.. and now Iīm 98% sure it will be Ariel Samantha... he really liked the name Samantha but we never really agreed on that one.. and being this way.. our baby will have a name we both agreed on and one he really liked... I do like the name Samantha but i didnīt wanted to have our baby named after someone we knew before.. but since the only one we "knew" we never even met and will never will made me go for it a bit stronger... the 2% remaining is because _Iīm not sure which should go first.. although I donīt want the names to end/start with the same letter as it would be if Samantha went first..