No sweetness you have not been so bad. You are serving as an example how one can survive even the unimaginable. You are strong and your kids will be strong because they've seen you carry on.
Take comfort that they say bad things happen in three's. Yours have been huge ones but the bad things are DONE! DONE you hear???! DONE! Your husband, your inlaws, your furniture. DONE!
Wishing you peaceful good vibes and much love. This too shall pass.
Claudia & Calvin