thank you all for your kindest words and prayers.. they are so much needed..

sometimes I feel like Iīm going crazy.. sometimes I feel like Iīm sleep with my eyes open.. so unmotivated.. donīt even wanna eat... itīs been hard to sleep... my eyes are popping out.. but I try get together and fix things as soon as I can.. I canīt keep my kid out of school for so long..

next week we are going to see some and see if we can get a scholarship or something...

all credit cards will be sent out the papers around next week to get them cancelled.. and still need to find out if he had any life insurance.. and if they are willing to pay if there was one..

things have been hard on me.. thankfully at my parents Iīve been having a couple things less to worry about.. such as food and shelter.. I mean I do have my place here.. but all my stuff hasnīt been moved over so itīs just an empty house..

once my stuff is here Iīll do some sort of sale.. esp the car.. I donīt need such fancy car... and besides if Iīm left with a lil extra $ from it, that would help a lot...

next thing I need to do is find a job... tough.. as I need to be on my own and something I can do from home.. I cannot work for someone.. being Iīll be leaving in two months when baby arrives... but I need to get an income because by then weīll be 3.. and I donīt wanna add that to my parents burden...

I also started a blog.. have been having the idea for so long, just didnīt knew about what.. and I think doing this will help me to vent, cry and such.. as well as keep a memory of how days go by.. maybe years from now Iīll show it to my kids..

http://notes-to-my-husband.blogspot.....html?spref=fb