September 20th, 2010... the day my world crumbled apart..

**boomersooner** · 09-26-2010, 11:52 AM

Prayers for you all.....I'm so sorry....

**Husky_mom** · 09-26-2010, 01:14 PM

thank you all for your kindest words and prayers.. they are so much needed..

sometimes I feel like I´m going crazy.. sometimes I feel like I´m sleep with my eyes open.. so unmotivated.. don´t even wanna eat... it´s been hard to sleep... my eyes are popping out.. but I try get together and fix things as soon as I can.. I can´t keep my kid out of school for so long..

next week we are going to see some and see if we can get a scholarship or something...

all credit cards will be sent out the papers around next week to get them cancelled.. and still need to find out if he had any life insurance.. and if they are willing to pay if there was one..

things have been hard on me.. thankfully at my parents I´ve been having a couple things less to worry about.. such as food and shelter.. I mean I do have my place here.. but all my stuff hasn´t been moved over so it´s just an empty house..

once my stuff is here I´ll do some sort of sale.. esp the car.. I don´t need such fancy car... and besides if I´m left with a lil extra $ from it, that would help a lot...

next thing I need to do is find a job... tough.. as I need to be on my own and something I can do from home.. I cannot work for someone.. being I´ll be leaving in two months when baby arrives... but I need to get an income because by then we´ll be 3.. and I don´t wanna add that to my parents burden...

I also started a blog.. have been having the idea for so long, just didn´t knew about what.. and I think doing this will help me to vent, cry and such.. as well as keep a memory of how days go by.. maybe years from now I´ll show it to my kids..

http://notes-to-my-husband.blogspot.....html?spref=fb

**anna_66** · 09-26-2010, 01:26 PM

Isabel, what a terrible tragedy for you and your family. I can read the heartbreak in your posts

I have a friend that's going through something very similar and lost her husband. She has twins. It's been hard for her but with family & friends she's getting through it and I know you will too.
Please know that I'm here for you if you need to talk. Call me any time.

Stay strong

Many (((HUGS)))
Anna

**caseysmom** · 09-26-2010, 01:30 PM

Isabel, here in the states if something like this happens the kids get social security until they are 18, is there anything like that in Mexico?

Please eat, you and the baby need the nourishment. I am sure your parents don't mind you being there, especially during this time, give yourself time to mourn and worry about the rest of the stuff later.

**Alysser** · 09-29-2010, 06:19 PM

Once again, Isabel, I am so sorry about your husband. I will be thinking of you, like I have been each day!

**K9karen** · 09-29-2010, 09:15 PM

Isabelle, I'm always thinking about you. I want you to know that I love you very much. I'm sorry people are saying negative things about your husband since he worked for the government. I know it makes you angry, but you and others know the truth. Believe me, I read the same trash in our papers.

I'm glad you saw your doctor and the baby is well.

Please take care of yourself and know you are dearly loved.