Muffin, What a special cat you were and so loved and missed. Yes, I cried while reading about you. I cried for you and for me because it brought back memories of a cat I had that died a long time ago. We sure get attached to our pets, dont we, but that's why I/we have pets--to love them and have them return that love. To the human, I am sorry for your loss and I can tell that you miss Muffin so much. Perhaps it would help to think "she is no longer in pain or suffering" and you did the best thing for her. Time will help but you will always remember her. Thanks for sharing. Kay in NC