blue, just a little thing. I wanted to say, if you really want yourself to be satisfied...meaning, you wanna do something which you know would please your friend if he were there. Do as I did. A friend of mine who I loved dearly left my school. The worst part was that she left because her mother was sick and we don't know what became of her. We miss her so much. So what I did was:
Once my friend colored something for me, I really wanted to remember her by so I put that picture in my file which I use a lot. I put it there and I know if she was in school, she'd be happy I was doing this. That's kinda the only thing I have left of her. I have a few pictures and I keep them safe. So something like this. Something your friend did for you. Write it down and hang it above your desk and your friend, if he were alive would have been happy to see that you have put up something that he did for you, just for him.
I hope you feel better and I hope that I provided some help to you. Good Luck! and May God help you in you every need!