Halo - Fibrosarcoma from microchip? Update #71

[Medusa]

Halo has her good moments and her bad. She is still eating and drinking up a storm. Still uses the litter box. Yesterday, she loved on a cat nip pillow I bought her.

But, her world is mostly our bed. We put a sheet over the bedspread and have her litter box and food dishes on it so she doesn't have to move around too much. She can still walk, but her hind legs are so weak.

I flew back to Prudhoe Bay yesterday afternoon. I won't be home again until the 23rd. I spent the whole morning with her talking and cuddling. The Pet Communicator told us that she thinks Halo doesn't want to cross over when I'm around. So, I made sure she knew that I love her and the choice is hers. I assured her that we would be reunited some day and would never be parted again.

Had a nightmare last night. (I usually don't sleep well my first night at work). Halo was gone. Cammie was gone. Pepper was gone. Willy was gone. Bobcat was gone. It was just me and Willow left and she looked old and tired. Cried the rest of the night. I sure look like crap today at work. There's no cosmetic on the earth that will remove the bags under my eyes.

Oh boy, can I ever relate. My RB Puddy went to the Bridge two years ago this month and I was so exhausted that I didn't know if I was walkin' or ridin' a horse. And when you mentioned cosmetics, I had to chuckle b/c I can recall putting my green eyeliner on my lips and my red lipliner on my eyes and having the vet's office staff look at me strangely but no one wanted to hurt my feelings, I guess, so they didn't say anything other than "How ya doin', Mary?" I looked at myself in the mirror in my car when I left and I couldn't help but laugh. Why didn't I see that when I was applying my makeup in the morning? All I can say is that even the bad times make life sweet, as strange as that sounds. Just love your sweet Halo as well and as much as you can. She knows. (((HUGS)))

[Taz_Zoee]

Oh, I am in tears. Reading how you told her the choice was hers.

Sorry about the nightmare. I would have been crying too!

Well, I do hope that when it is Halo's time that she goes peacefully. I'm sure she knows how much you love her. And that's why she may wait until you are not home. She doesn't want to hurt you.

Ok, I need to go remove the lump in my throat.